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Thursday, September 30, 2010

A new Start

I got my first full time job and i start on Monday!
I'm pretty freaked out, but i hope and pray it will go well and i won't be a disappointment.
I don't know why i haven't blogged in awhile. I guess at the end of each day recently, i've looked back over them and not really wanted to remember them in the future.
But i think i will try harder to write more.
Yesterday i went to Albany mall with Lance and he lent me money to buy a cool bag :)
We also saw Han-Wool and he was super friendly! He is such a lovely guy.

Anyway, one day i will drive this car:

Just imagine me behind the wheel! It works!

Friday, September 3, 2010

Much Socializing

So today after missing two busses, Laban and I met up with Hannah and Lance in Albany mall and had a general hang-out. We looked in some stores, saw Han-Wool and Paul O'Leary and made some swell jokes. It was really nice to see Hannah because we really don't hang out enough to satisfy me :P.

In the evening i went to Laura and Mathieu's engagement party and talked a lot. I'm actually not a very social person, as in, I don't find it easy conversing with lots of new people, so it was pretty tiring. I hope people don't realise how stressed i am during conversations!
I mainly ended up watching the Bee Movie and playing with a big hunting-type knife.

At home while flicking through pictures to update my Tumblr with, i came across the picture below which is an old one my cousin uploaded quite awhile ago and it made me laugh anew!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Staying In Love

Tonight i got together with a group of quite different young women and we listened to part one of a 4-part sermon series about staying in Love. I think the messages it had are really fundamental for all relationships. It was about looking to Jesus' love for us as the example of how our relationships should be, rather than relying on the human relationships around us solely.

I am so scared of being in a relationship and deciding to submit to and love that person everyday and then have them wake up and not do the same.
I want a marriage that lasts. I want a partner who will stay with me and continue striving to make our relationship work and put me first even when things aren't great and even when i'm selfish and moody.
I want to be able to have the strength to be that for someone else.
I think what terrifies me is that i know for myself how easily i could fall into bad habits and forget to put them first, so i know it's likely that my partner would be the same.
I wish the world wasn't so broken.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

He Was Sleeping Soundly

Today i went to town to hand in my CV at Borders after grabbing a Jesters pie with Laban.
It ended up being slightly awkward because after i gave my CV to Ben i went to look at MAD magazines with Lance and on my way out Ben was showing my CV to a lady and said "Bye Saskia! I'm showing her your CV!" I didn't know if i should have gone over and talked to her or not but i ended up just saying bye and leaving.
It was very nice of Ben to put in a good word for me though :)

After that Lance and i grabbed a coffee/ Lance bought me a coffee because i'm broke and he also supplied me with some of his Mum's delicious cake. We then went to the University Library so Lance could do some research and i read some more of "Blue Like Jazz", which is a book i recommend to all! There was this guy asleep behind me and he looked really peacful so i took a photo of him and then wrote him a note which i propped up next to his face.
It said " YOU'RE AWAKE!!" on the outside and on the inside it said something like: "Hello Stranger, I just thought you would like to know that you don't snore! Go to bed earlier!"
I thought it would be a fun thing to find for him :)

After dinner my friend Louise came and picked me up and we went back to her house to watch a movie and catch up. Louise goes to Uni at Otago so it's really awesome hanging out with her when she comes back on holidays. I find her really easy to open up to about anything.
We ended up talking till like 12.30 and it was really nice.

Well i've just finished applying for 3 more jobs online andi should probably get some sleep because i found myself being really moody/sleepy today! (i should take my own advice about sleeping earlier)

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

It's Raining Gumballs

Tonight i watched Bedtime Stories with Laban, Dad and Marius while eating my first pie made from scratch! It was a chicken and vege pie which Heather Donnell gave me the recipe for. It was so yum!!!!!!!! We ate the whole thing :)

Monday, August 30, 2010

The Start of My Blogging Career

So i realised the other day that i don't want to ever forget all the small things that happen to me in everyday life.
I intend for this to be a proper attempt at writing a little something every day, just to keep my memories alive.
I'm going to be as honest as i can be. Hopefully not too honest :P

So Lets go!

Today i woke up and i felt like a bad person. Then i had a quick chat with God and i felt good again.
Then Laban came over and we watched 2 episodes of scrubs season three and ate some Pizza Slabs! I also figured out i cant lie with my lower back flat on the ground.

After Laban caught his bus to work i bummed around for a bit and played some Legion TD on Warcraft. Lance and Rosie joined me at some point and it was super fun :)
Then i read my chapter of Blue Like Jazz for home group.

In the chapter it was talking about how people find it difficult to believe in God because they feel like they need to make sense of something or rationalise something for it to be real. You can't make real sense of God. The book said it was like an ant trying to make sense of us.
It made me realise that people don't want to admit that there is a level of understanding and consciousness that we're unable to grasp. Just like an ant can't make emotive choices or make a car, there are things we just can't make sense of in life. I guess believing in God is acknowledging that He is too much Awesomeness for us to comprehend.
You can't necessarily answer why you have faith that God is there, loving you. You can feel it though. Something in us yearns for the depth of relationship that can only be discovered through Christ. (this is not a well-thought-out post)

After home group i got dropped off at Momo Tea and Han was outside. I really liked that Han was outside for 2 reasons.
1: I don't like walking into places on my own
2: I like Han

I joked that we should walk in holding hands, i wish we had :P

Hanging with people there was really nice. Nicer than i expected. Sometimes i feel a strange tension between myself and some of my friends which i don't understand and can't figure out it's origin. It's nice when it goes away.
Ben and Pete ended up joining us which was really nice also.
I've always wanted to get to know Peter Reid better because he honestly seems like one of the most genuine and lovely guys i've ever met. Unfortunately this also makes him a bit intimidating in my brain so i have yet to break into the friend world of Peter Reid :P

I've also been getting to know Ben a bit better recently which i've really enjoyed!!

Well i just finished playing some warcraft with Rosie and now its time to get ready for bed and start watching Coffee Prince! No matter how hard i try i never seem to be able to get to bed at a good time.

Silly Saskia.