I am so scared of being in a relationship and deciding to submit to and love that person everyday and then have them wake up and not do the same.
I want a marriage that lasts. I want a partner who will stay with me and continue striving to make our relationship work and put me first even when things aren't great and even when i'm selfish and moody.
I want to be able to have the strength to be that for someone else.
I think what terrifies me is that i know for myself how easily i could fall into bad habits and forget to put them first, so i know it's likely that my partner would be the same.
I wish the world wasn't so broken.