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Thursday, April 2, 2009

Reasons To Be Happy

I liked Laban's blog (just like Han did) so i thought i would also do one.
I am in fact skipping uni to do this...

1: I am surrounded by people who love me and who i love.

2: I get along really well with my Dad, he is my favourite Dad :D

3: God has really been speaking to me through friends, sermons and books recently.

4: There are always more friends to be made and people to show God's love too!

5: I'm not going to uni today :D

6: Today i am going to make someone super happy just by taking photos of them and making the effort to see them.

7: Two weeks of holidays from tomorrow!

8: The weather is beautiful today

9: I have some really super close friends

10: Laban likes to watch Chuck with me

I thought i'd make it an even number. i could have gone on for awhile, which makes me even happier!

Thursday, March 26, 2009

Give me love over this

So i discovered that i do have good friends :)
It was really good to talk to Laura and Paul last night.

I had a really chilled start to the day because i got up earlier than i needed to (even though i chatted until 2am.) It was nice. I made a tea and a bagel and watched the latest Chuck episode.
Then i read a little bit while listening to Coldplay.

I had a really nice chill with Lance today also. We played gin and he beat me for like the 5oth time.
Dishonesty is annoying.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

blah

Today i had a test. I did alright in it...i think.
I also made a new online friend named Harmony. I hope sometime soon she will be a real one.
The guy who i wanted to ask the name of sat with me today. He talked to me about the test. I didn't ask him what his name was.
Someone i wanted to talk to didn't feel like talking to me because they were tired. That felt lame.
I lack close friends who i can talk to about things.

Monday, March 23, 2009

Beautiful


So today i found myself smiling alot about the beauty of everything God has created. The weather today was my favourite kind. A hot sun and a cool breeze. I was very greatful that God hooked me up with such perfect weather for my four hour gap at uni!

Something i've been noticing recently, is when people say "thank God." Most of the time they don't mean it literally. A girl on the bus this morning said "Thank God it stopped raining before i had to get out of the car with my art board!"
So i prayed, and I did thank God. He probably didn't want her art to get ruined just as much as she didn't want it to. Probably even more :D

I had another fun chat with Paul today. I told him to say something profound before he left, so he said: "Everything has it's beauty, but not everyone sees it." I really liked that he said that. It's something i've been trying to be very aware of recently. I think there's something special and beautiful waiting to be discovered in everything God has created. Maybe even wasps...but i have yet to see proof of this.

While i was strolling through town to meet up with Nicole and Fiona for sushi, these two elderly women asked me for directions to a store. I told them how to get there and they thanked me. Being able to help those women is the most useful i've felt in ages. Maybe i should start being more actively useful :P Or more accurately, allow God to work through me instead of doing things my own way?

It's funny when a random person you've never spoken to sticks in your brain for no reason. Or maybe there is a reason and i just haven't discovered it yet. But there is a guy in my Ancient Egyptian tutorial that has done that. I think i'm going to ask him what his name is.

There's actually so much more i want to write, but i think i've covered enough highlights for one day. Oh! Except for talking to Miriam on the phone!!! which was lovely! I hadn't spoken to her in way too long.

Sunday, March 22, 2009

a post


Ben playing Bob Dylan is something i could listen to alot. I decided that tonight. He's good at it.

I think recently i've been feeling pretty lonely. I really want to be someone super important to someone else. That sounds weird in my own brain.

I've also been noticing how easy it is to take people for granted. Like parents or friends. My Dad especially. I really want to show people how much they mean to me, but i'm afraid of it not being returned. It's a little selfish. But it really does suck when that happens. I feel like it is constantly happening to me.

Well enough of that. I went to Coldplay the other night and it was so super!
Also developed a small-scale crush on Zachary Levi. <3 That's what having a non-existant love life will do to you :P Well it's my excuse anyway!

I also really appreciate the awesome guy who works at the dairy next to NBC! He's always there with a cheerful face and a "hello". Man he's great. I wonder if he knows that he makes such an impression on a stranger. I wonder how many times all of us make strong impressions on people we hardly know. I hope it happens.

I want a friend who i can be completely honest with and who can be completely honest with me.
That is all. video

Friday, March 6, 2009

2nd bus ride with Nicole + singstar

So i caught the bus home with Nicole again today! how lucky am i? (very lucky)
Mum came over for dinner. I hadn't seen her in about 3 weeks. I don't know exactly what it is about her, but she makes me feel angry all the time when she's around. So i had a whole evening of feeling frustrated and annoyed. The highlight was that Dad played singstar for the first time and was awesome at it!!!

It's funny how if you've had an evening of feeling disliked by someone in your family or just a crap evening and a friend doesn't seem interested in how you are, it can make everything all the worse.
I think i discovered that some friendships just never are what you'd like them to be.

I also got asked a weird question by someone i hoped would never ask me that question. But i handled it pretty well i think :)

Thursday, March 5, 2009

Crazy KFC Man

Straight after uni today i had work, which was stressful to get to straight from uni.
But after work i caught a bus home at about 9.30pm. I got out of the bus and was walking past KFC, where there was this crazily angry man slamming the big KFC door around and yelling and swearing. The door actually came off it's hinges....
He saw me watching and said "what are you staring at!?" so i sprinted home. When i started running, the girl behind me also started running. It was semi-funny.

Then i went home and played sim Tower!

What a day :)

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

early beginnings

Today was my earliest start yet. Waking up at 6am with everything being dark freaked my brain out. People shouldn't be awake at that time.
I think i was a bit out of it today because i kept walking into things. I got two sweet looking bruises :D
Annnnd!!! Today i got to catch the bus home with Nicole! Like old times in school! haha. It was super, we even had the same bus driver we had back then, no kidding! I hope to catch the bus home with her many-a-day.

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

Photos

Today i took some photos for a friend for an acting application of sorts.
It was pretty fun getting to take serious photos for something with a person willing to do what i told them :D

Monday, March 2, 2009

First day of Uni

My first day of University was just swell!
I had my first lecture and then i chilled with Joanna, Wilhelmina, Jacques and Michael and got some tastey sushi :) Then Jo and i went to JB HiFi and found lots of things we wanted but couldn't afford.
Then i chilled with Lance for about four hours (second lecture in there somewhere) and went home!
What a great day :)

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Thoughts


I just don't understand.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Slumdog Millionaire


Well i started today off with a visit from Strahan and Mathieu for a car trip of DEATH (Strahan is on his learners and was driving.) That was surprisingly fun!

Most importantly though, i just watched Slumdog Millionaire...and wow.
I love how people's minds can come up with such beautiful ideas and ways to convey an amazing story. God has blessed so many people with such amazing gifts which have the power to move millions of people. It blows my mind.

I forget how powerful movies and music can be. They have the power to change our moods, inspire us to do something great, give birth to new, creative ideas and give people hope.

If i hadn't been with other people i could have cried the whole way through this movie. i could have cried from sadness, anger, frustration, horror and joy.

I pray that one day i can create something that might affect even one person in such a powerful way.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Flaws




I've been getting to know so many people better and making much better friends recently, it's been an amazing past week in general

The road trip i've just been on really opened my eyes to alot of really amazing things. I learnt new things about myself and explored new possibilities and relationships. It was indescribable. It made me want to road trip for the rest of my life, meeting new people and new places every day. I also discovered that i love swimming in the Ocean!? i always thought i hated it!
It also made me really appreciate God's creation, it really is Awesome. I have so much love inside of me right now.

Today i had a much belated valentines date with my friend Nicole. We were trying to take photos for a musicians music video. She had requested that people send in photos which showed positive things about flaws, and they had to have written words in the photo.
We looked through all the other entries and found that they were mostly self-taken photos of people holding signs saying things like "flaws make me perfect" or saying a flaw they have that they liked. So we tried to do our pictures slightly differently :D

This is going to be a great year

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Book Reading


Today was the last day of the road trip, also sadly, the last day of Israel reading "the slaves of the mastery" to me.

He had been reading it to me in the van whenever we were on the road for the whole trip. He'd developed voices for all the characters and had me totally absorbed. I love how being read to can be so magical. It just relaxes and enthralls me so much. I want to be a kid again, so everyone would read to me.

It was also Lance's birthday party this evening. It was pretty cool. I learnt about exciting new developments in areas of some friend's life and got to share some of the great things that have happened to me over the past week with good friends who i've missed.

I'm glad Lance and Kent have made it to 19. They're nice boys.

Friday, February 20, 2009

Wellington and Middle Marius




Today was our trip to wellington. The weather was awful, the one-way streets had us lost for quite awhile and there was some squabbles over the reading of the map. So it was pretty much WICKED-COOL. haha.
We went to Te Papa Museum and saw the colossal squid!! man! it was huge! They also had a video of it being captured and it showed how masive and bright red it was.

The deep sea is my biggest fear. Just thinking about it terrifies and thrills me. The unknown is something that i think has always terrified and thrilled people. People don't like to be scared, so they endeavor to discover, so the unknown will go away. I think i like the depths of the ocean being kept secret. That way my imagination can run wild and i can have more nights where i lie awake for ages just imagining being the a passenger in the first submarine that could go to the deepest parts and discover all the insane sea-life.

After the museum we went and played gin and had pizza with a good friend Nick Chester at his flat. It was really cool catching up with him!

For dinner we went to my uncle Marius' house in Feilding, which turned out to be quite an experience. Everyone really liked my Uncle. He showed us a video of an overweight corpse being cut open to show the effects of fat on your body and organs etc. Those images will stay with me till the day i die.

I really enjoyed how much Israel enjoyed meeting the people and familes along the way. That boy has an amazing heart.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Grandmothers and Aunts


This morning we had the most delicious breakfast at the Majors house! They actually had crossiants made from scratch! man they were yum! They had a big bowl of chopped up fresh fruit, and toast and cereals. It was amazing.
Edward kept poking his head out of his room and inspecting us and then running back inside. Until his sister pushed him out and shut the door. He's so cute.

After leaving the Majors we headed to Hastings and had lunch with Laura's Grandma and two Aunts (and a very fat cat)
It was a really tastey lunch and everyone was really nice to chat to.

When we'd finished lunch we went out to have some fun. We went to a really creepy shop called "possum world" which had a ridiculous amount of stuffed possums and other animals.
Then we went and played mini golf and me and Mat tied on a score of 57 which was alright. We all got a hole in one! After that we went and swam in the ocean which was really rough and strong (and fun). Israel almost got to meet my sister the mermaid, but i told her to swim back out to sea.

Then we went to some salt water hot pools which were really nice! I met and irish man in the steam roooom!!!!!!

We went back to Laura's grandma's for a delicious dinner and we were all way too full for dessert :P

Then on we went to the third family we were staying with. Didn't get to meet any of the kids today though, they were asleep when we arrived. :(

PS i almost forgot! we chilled with this little kid on his grandfather's mobility scooter. He was sad when we left!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Big Houses and many children




This evening, after a day of swimming and chillin in Taupo, we arrived at the huge house of the second family we would stay with.

The family had 5 girls, the oldest being 15, And 1 little boy named Edward! They were all so nice and friendly!

Edward was pretty shy at first, but was soon tricking us all into being bitten by his toy snake. He sure was tricky! I really loved playing with him.

Monday, February 16, 2009

First family


Well we stayed with the first family of 3 tonight. I was a bit nervous staying at the house of someone i didn't know, but it was really great.

We spent the day in the coromandel and went to Hot water beach and cathedral cove. Cathedral Cove was simply lovely.

After spending the evening chilling with Laura's friend Nathan (person whose house we were staying at) I relaxed about the upcoming houses we would be staying in. I thoroughly enjoyed the opportunity to be greeted and welcomed into the home of strangers. There are wonderful people out there.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Bunker Hill Folk Review

I swear i went back in time this evening.

It was one of the best things i have ever experienced.
It was just a sweet room, full of awesome old things and people, playing raw and honest music.
I could have made myself a bed and lived there. Even the smell was great.
I loved how they didn't use microphones or anything electric, it was just people playing their music as themselves, with nothing to hide behind. It was beautiful to witness.
Lydia described it as people being in your bedroom, watching you practice to yourself. I like that description of the atmosphere.

I am definitely going back next month

Saturday, February 14, 2009

valentines day

So another valentines day is almost over.
I had a text from on secret admirer...haha curious.

I got my hopes up for something i knew wouldn't happen. But i still felt very disappointed. I should probably stop doing that.

I did have a nice time hanging out with my friend Joanna though, and planning for the day we will go to Ireland and meet our future husbands.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Friends

So i've been enjoying some really super chill-times with my friends recently.
I had a sweet spa-ing/movie night with some really choice people last night. It was most pleasant!
Today i got some lunch with another friend of mine which was nice, i haven't chilled properly with him for awhile.

I have a week and a half off work which is so amazing in my brain! I am looking forward to some relaxation!

So valentines day tomorrow. I'm still considering whether i'll make cards for people or not. I'm having a very romantic valentines afternoon tea picnic with my friend Nicole :P Better than any boy i tell you.

I feel like a big part of my life has just ended. A part that i didn't think would end. It makes me feel a bit sad, but also excited for new things which may come along in that area of my life.

Ugh. I'm really bad at this blogging business

Sorry

Monday, February 9, 2009

Sally


So i have this great friend in my kitchen.
Her name is Sally and she lives on flies. Trust me, she's awesome.
I watched a daddy long legs spider dip its leg in water and then put it in it's mouth. It was really strange to watch. I'm not sure why.

As you can probably tell i don't have a real agenda for this blog. Today was the 6th of 8 days of work in a row. It's surprisingly tiring.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Music































So..i just saw Ryan Adams. BEST!!! Oh wow. This drunk guy kept crashing into me and leaning against me and stuff and Ryan said "He man..i think you're crushing that girl...not cool"
So Ryan Adams totally saved me! :P
Haha sick-o fan girl right now.

Moving right along...
Today i chilled with my other friend Laura and we played cards in the mall food court. We won a game each, which was great :D


I'm sorry, my brain is all over the place right now, still on a buzz from the concert.
I hope my impending 8 days in a row of work aren't too tiring, and that the road trip is worth it!

I love you all

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Missing You

Today i missed alot of people.
I missed my cousin Jared.
I missed old friends from school.

Today i was really busy. I played Rock band with my friend Nicole for about three hours (my eyes stung from not blinking). I had a coffee and a chill by a lake with my friend Laura. Then i went for a night walk along the beach with Belinda and enjoyed an amazing sunset. But i missed people so much it ached.
Being outside, seeing how amazing nature really is, seeing the vastness of everything really made me feel very small and lonely. Not in a sad way. It's hard to explain.

In other news... when did my 16-year-old brother become so much more awesome than me!?
He's so nice! He has amazing social skills and can get on with almost anybody. He never says a mean thing about anyone. I am so proud that he's my brother. I hope i can learn something from him. Still. It seems a bit unfair, me being older and everything.

Over and Out.

Sunday, February 1, 2009

People Surprise You

So this is my first blog. I'm not really sure how this goes..
Something i've thought about alot today (at 2am) is how different people can be to how i perceive them. Certain friends or people i know have really been transforming my view of them recently. It's an interesting experience. It makes me question how people must see me, and makes me want to change.

At church last night, Dale challenged us to be friends who can challenge each other and point out things which may need to change. I really wish i had friends who could do that. I'm sure if someone said to me "Saskia you're a flirt" or "Saskia, sometimes you dress immodestly" i wouldn't actually feel very greatful at the time. But being told things like this would probably alert alot of people to things about themselves that they didn't know offended others.

Isn't it interesting how if someone points out a fault someone has, the person automatically becomes defensive and maybe even retaliates? I know that's my first response. While people still generally want to self improve and be a person that others will love.

I didn't intend to write all that ^
Peace out